Hung Over But Still Hanging In

It's only a game. Lost one just now even the exhibition games I don't like dropping. But the ones that count for ratings mean more to me. The meaningless games still I would like to win but experimentation often involves high risk and risk I did by doing the off beat road while experimenting with my game. Are you watching a champion in the making? I seriously doubt that; there is no room here for illusions. I'm just a boy at heart okay an old man of sixty one who wants to have fun and when it isn't fun anymore then I'll quit and find something else that is fun. I've written journals far longer than playing chess. I can write about anything and not just about chess. Meanwhile I will guard this house against intruders and vandals and stand watch as best as I can. Remember I won four straight games in a roll hiking up my chess ratings and I'm jamming or playing knowingly when I feel conditions are not prime like lack of sleep when the confidence comes around and I sense the opportunity then I will play a rated game for points once the confidence is there let's hope my good senses can take command and tell me when to hold or fold or get in there for the gold and go for higher ratings.