My Nerves Are Shot!

Yes, I am so nervous from playing online chess that my nerves are shot or in other words they are here to say slow down and get a hold of myself. It isn't the nervousness from losing but the nerves from winning a winning streak. This winning streak doesn't come around everyday but this one particular winning streak just came about without hope or prayer it just came. I knew it was somewhere around the corner or maybe thousands of miles way far away but I knew it was there. Or did I? At times there is little hope or even none. Call it despair because I have lost more games than I ever care to think about. This last player was one of the higher players rated somewhere at 1247 far above my ratings where I've been rated down in the dumps far below my norm. I figured it could have been dementia because I've been forgetting things lately like wearing my shirt outside inside out or wearing two different kinds of shoes at the same time. These can be sure signs of mental impairment make no doubt about it. If you think chess is boring and dull guess again. It may be all of that but it isn't all the time. There are moments like this time when the unusual takes place. My last opponent didn't hand over the game to me. I earned the win in fact he played with such perfection that I had to step it up far and away from the kind of low level game I'm so accustomed to playing. Right now my caffeine is wearing off and I'm returning to normal which means yes caffeine is my performance enhancing drug of choice.