The Feel For Confidence

My Opponent was worthy and I had gone into this rated game with a feel for confidence no matter how highly rated or no matter how well this higher rated player could play. It didn't mean I was going to win just because I had this feel for confidence. I can imagine how Nadal felt in his last match in tennis against his opponent where his opponent was 100th ranked tennis player an unknown who knocked on the door of Nadal the famed tennis player in a major tennis tournament of Wimbledon and scored an upset. This morning of this ungodly hour I felt ready to take on all comers it didn't matter how good they were I felt ready with or without caffeine. Well I had none and I did score an upset I wasn't tired I could have played on for another two more games maybe more but this win for me this morning was enough I needed time to catch my breathe look around and make sure I wasn't just dreaming. I felt things clicking for me it was this feel as if I could do no wrong if this was ever playing in the zone then this was it. I'm taking a shower for it is due time I'm not so dead tired at all that I do not have any strength to shower myself off. The lady of the house will get her wish.

Performance

Everything it seems is related to performance. Ratings believe it or not do count. The very survival of this blog is dependent upon ratings I may think it is good enough but if the viewing audience or readers disagree with me or those with authority over this content find it not in line with what is productive I'm out of here. It's only common sense. Correct me if I am wrong but people just don't want to read about losers and that is not what I'm about. If I were in a perpetual slump the charts would read as a line in a slash going no where but down. An exception to the rule is JD Salinger a popular novel about a college student named Holden Caufield a failing student headed nowhere but the mental ward. As time moves onward the technology becomes more advanced and those with older minds get weeded out. Take the number one rated chess player in the world still rated number one after all the years I've mentioned his name in this chess blog Magnus Carlsen although he hasn't achieved the status of a legend because his name hasn't been around long enough. The very young players have access to computers which supply them with the right information to succeed the very data they need to arm themselves with. My point is that chess is so intensely skilled as a game that it takes powerful computers to measure performance and rate those who are in the elite. We ordinary people can participate but don't we become in awe of those players who rate and perform. Having met the highly rated movie and television actor Clint Eastwood on the air on the radio (yes I am a name dropper)if I could suggest to him that unlike all the other major games we see in sports chess should reign as the game of intelligence. I'd have Clint Eastwood sitting at a table looking down at a chess board telling his opponent to go ahead make his day and does his opponent feel lucky? This would be an old line for an emerging game that just won't fade away just you wait for the screaming headlines or the Internet stories of major proportions and the unmentionables is thrust before our very eyes and is there intelligent life on other planets besides earth? They the aliens would have to make my day and make a move for when I'm on my game I am on my game I'm in the zone I can do no wrong give me Bobby Fischer bring him back and make him play his best game and I can only try my best to crush him. Today I did that just about having played the second highest rated chess player to oppose me rated 1425 he did beat me but I played my best game took him to the distance like from the movie Rocky One I was only one move away from check mating him I pushed him to the limit he would not play me a second game I felt he fled because he feared me because I had the capability to thrash him the next game and how would he look when a low rated chess player so much lower than she would look? Yes correction my opponent was a female who had been on a ten game winning streak I checked her profile. Man woman or beast when I am ready to play I will play.

Live To Win

I am not dead. I past the test and had beaten one of the highest rated chess players since who knows when it was so long ago that I had finished out this well and I deserve to have a good night's sleep since I also worked out more than usual. All I do know is that yes I like winning more than....oh never mind it is late and I cannot think. Good night.

The Famous Painting: Dora Maar au Chat by Picasso

The Famous Painting: Dora Maar au Chat by Picasso

I'm not sure what this is all about I'm an insomniac woke up at this weird ungodly hour for most people but not for me and found or discovered this master piece on my computer screen.  But yes earlier in the day or of late I did google this particular painting  found it fascinating that such a picture sold for so much a much sought after picture not because how well it was drawn but because of who drew it.  I'm not an artist but I do draw I am learning but I do not think it is in  the cards that I will ever be good at it but I would never have known Picasso and his works if it were  not for tracing some of his works.  I can and have drawn some things freehand and when I do I feel pure as the wind driven snow.  But tracing is my backbone.  Tracing from a picture is a traditional word a sin associated with cheating yes I know but if I am up front then it  isn't  cheating.  We must let our common sense dictate to us what is right and what is wrong.  When I move my painting brush to make a stroke it is like moving a chess piece in a board game it is a move to get to the right picture in my case recently I painted my second oil painting of the famous Golden Gate Bridge using a digital picture and tracing from it.  But I didn't trace it all I used my own interpretation and drew lines far different than what was seen in the digital picture.  It was if you please an exaggeration maybe dramatized.  This picture I named The Golden Gate Bridge In The Twilight it is completed but hasn't been shown as yet to the public.  The first  two people I showed it to like it from the  get go.  Some of your best friends or your loved ones can be your worst critics but not in this case of the Golden Gate Bridge In The Twilight.  It is quite possible I  will show it to you sometime in the coming.  Whether playing and practicing chess online leads to a better understanding of movement on canvas with an oil on a paint brush can boggle  the mind.  

The Moves In Chess Create Patterns; Every Picture Has A Pattern

When a decent game of chess is played my concentration is clicking in the designs of the pattern from which the pieces have moved.  It sounds  outrageous this I know but this is what is happening.  How do I know?  Like bowling a perfect game of 300 there is no such  score in chess the perfect game in chess is when your lines are better drawn than that of your opponents and  you can do no wrong.  Then  you are in the zone and the picture is looking good you see victory and you have a picture perfect result  or if I may say a product.  So what am I saying?  What I am saying is that it is in oil.  A picture done in oil of the Golden Gate Bridge on canvas will appear some time.  You will see what I mean.

Bitter Sweet Trumps Sour

I'm just making barely enough wins over loses in the win/lost column to make chess the game worth my while.  The last game is what keeps me in play as I felt I was in the zone and could do no wrong.  Was it that review of an old hypnotic recording which prompted me to play a good game this time?  I made short order of my last opponent and he was around the same rating as I.  Like what Joe Montana said to me on a talk show if you hate losing more than you like winning this would have to be what was on his mind at the time he is in control of his precious but limited time to win it or not.

To Assassinate A Queen

I can legally do this and get away with it.  So let me talk chess and not  politics....please.  At this ungodly hour in the morning until five and I'm stalking a queen and having fun doing it?  It is no wonder there are chess players online who have logged in tens of thousands of chess games on their profile.  They are having fun!  And I've only a mere 2500 or so  games logged on.  Yes I am only a beginner chess player when it comes to ratings but come on if you may excuse the phrase I've written enough about this game to fool quite a number of people who might mistake me as an expert in this field the game of chess.  I'm beginning dose off never do this when playing chess my advice especially for myself(I'm  talking to myself?) is  take a break when fatigue sets in or you get ready for a nap; take the nap not  a game of chess.

Just Singing In The Rain

It rained on me and losing is not my kind of game.  I was the monster as always when I lose so anyone beware I am not a fun guy to be around when I lose.  But it is a good thing at least that I can win as many games as I can lose in fact more winning games.  For a time the voice of reason was telling me to not to play chess if it is going to turn me into this horrible monster.  Now  I  know now I know why I kept   playing   through en endless slump that appeared there would be no end in sight.  My last game for today so far was the more interesting game as I was playing wounded my upper leg/thigh area was in a discomfort almost a pain any longer sitting would have been grounds for a forfeiture  and I did quit  rather than go on to play another game.  But I sent my queen  back down to my turf to defend against an attack rather than go for  one lone pawn.  It worked like a storybook charm I had succeeded in trapping my opponents queen on my own turf thus my opponent resigned on the spot once he  or she saw  no way out.  
Chances were that my  opponent was a guy.  I've got an oil painting of the Golden Gate Bridge I'd like to show you once it is finished.  Remember what I've been saying all along;  that there is a correlation between  the patterns one sees in chess as well as the patterns necessary to draw a good picture in the world of art.