Battling My Opponents

My reasons for playing on line chess is to arrive at the zone to hit the jackpot so to speak and win the big one when everything goes right and I can do no wrong. So I have lost games along the way I can absorb these loses and learn and be tough get tough to improve my skills through practice and experience. I'm hanging in. I managed to beat a 1375 or so player something I hadn't done for awhile. My opponent erred allowing me to hook his king and queen with my knight and the game was mine if I just was able to follow up despite his higher rating than mine. I was able this time. I didn't blow my lead. Look at the money I'm saving by not blowing it away at the casinos.

Activation

It is all too often this activation. My opponent was like 3 wins to 7 loses. I thought I'd have a chance this time for a win. If I didn't checkmate my next move opponent would have had me checkmated. Other players and all levels say they get the jitters as well. Reading this blog is not for those who want to relax. I can relax now and take a rest from the stress and strain of the emotions. A tennis match would even more so mentally as well as physically exhausting or wearing more so than chess. I'm taking a break. I can see where those Vietnam veterans coming back from the war or any war for that matter could become mental cases from the hell.

I Don't Want To Know

His mother when she was alive over a decade ago told me her son had passed on and gave me a detailed description of the why and reason he passed on. Now a criminology major tells me this person could still be alive just maybe. I don't want to know the real truth should he be deceased. I would rather think that he is still alive even though it may not be the truth. I was told he is not listed in the death index so he may still be alive at a particular location in Oakland. I don't want to hear the bad news if he is indeed perished. Just let me believe he is still alive. My father in the white pages is listed as being alive and at 97 years old! What a scream. You would think they would want to make a movie out of my story and call it " Stand By Me".

Shot To Hell

Yes my nerves have been shot to hell. There's nothing like a change from boredom to too much excitement and an online game of chess does it for me. Now you know why I call this blog nerves galore. Sometimes my hand shakes or my leg a little bit due to you know what that I'm not far from freaking out. I'm a little more calm now. You would think that there is a little more excitement that I should tolerate. Well there is. The advance chess players keep blogs too on chess but they are the ones with brains writing in technical jargon with a major in mathematics or some academic background like nuclear physics or computer science. Not I said the blog writer who keeps another blog called It Never Takes A Genius. Let me make this quite clear I am not a genius. This is so obvious. But I suppose I can reach a larger audience because most of you understand what I'm writing about. Those genius types speak and write way over our heads not to be understood by ordinary mortals like you and I.

Going On Hold

If it isn't fun then don't do it. This theory might have to be applicable to my game of chess. Wait for the demons to pass and wait my turn and then gather myself and wait for the opportune time to enter the game let my best become restored. Here I go again talking to myself. I look for words of wisdom other than what my thoughts are and yes there is provision for readers to comment unlike my past journals forbidden material yet violated by my first wife. Those chess playing computers were pretty good like a backboard that could do no wrong but then they only make for a stronger game for humans other than myself who also accelerated their game moving with the machine in lightning like speed more often than not in the same step calculating and fierce with precision with a deadly skilled instinct to strike at the opportune moment at an opponents vital spot. So you say what is there to be nervous about playing chess? It's just a game is it not?

Abandon Ship

It is what chess players do when they are losing it in a game big time. I suppose it can be online or a game in real person. Players do it they abandon ship or in this case the game when they get throttled by their opponent the game is lost not a chance to recoup the loses like a sinking ship on its way down no hope in saving it. Well I lost a game in fact two games today. Life will go on. McQwire the baseball player once known as the winner now turn cryer for his admission to the use of steroids will go on. More often than not a setback is nothing more than a set up for a come back. If I sound incoherent it is probably because I am those over the counter sleeping pills can put me out for twelve hours and then some.

The Zone

As rare as it is we indulge or try or hope in our struggles to obtain that jackpot that feeling of ecstasy the pleasures of performance when we can do no wrong. To find the point of success amongst the failures is a reminder of our lives in progress. For all the bad days a good one will follow but somehow this doesn't add up to a life of success does it? Back to the drawing board the search for the true meaning of life never ceases. The engine search overall knows where I am coming from it responds well as my eyes glaze mostly for something I can lock on to and focus as if I were to get a perfect score or near perfect score on a SAT. There is nothing more satisfying than comprehension and acing out on a SAT an achievement I have not come close to thus far. But I believe my blog my journal can be fully understood and appreciated by any reader provided such reader can find the right time and place for the readership of their time. I was always inspired by the works of Anne Frank even though I have not read the book in its entirety.

Maurice Ashley

He is the first and only African American grandmaster. Chess is the name of the game. He says anyone who enters an important game and says he isn't nervous is lying or he just doesn't care. Playing online does it to me but I don't get nervous all the time in chess but more often than not. My heart beats a mile a minute at times and I did play a rated game for points and all I got for my last win was five points. One higher rated player at around 138 advised for me to not play in the beginner category or room but I have my hands full as it is I get plenty of challenge there by far I'd be in over my head if I were to play intermediate chess. But yes I was nervous and my fingers glided over the controls and I was all nerves feeling the moisture build up upon my finger tips. In the words of a grandmaster I googled to be a good player like a grandmaster one must practice six to eight hours per day with seven years of such practice under one's belt. This amount of practice is the bare requirements of achieving such a position one cannot reach this level of chess unless the hours of practice is put in without such practice the most talented player is down the tubes one can't do it.

Why Play Chess?

It makes me tense and nervous still. So why do I play this game? That's a very good question. Writing blogs or a journal doesn't make me nervous or uncomfortable but yes I'm not the only one who feels the pressure to succeed there has to be a loser and a winner maybe a draw every now and then. So now I've become accustom to the elite and who they are as a result of a little chess play. Countries of advance super power status ordinarily play this game as it the game of chess has locked arms and step with advanced technology with the countries of higher economic position with Russia currently in the lead still despite the fact Bobby Fischer wiped out their number one man Boris back in the 70's. Russia can still destroy any country that dares invade its territory with its weapons make no doubt. Economically it has stepped down but militarily it has the might to defend itself. So what's my point? I haven't any. Just read my blog for what it is; something to sit back at and view with an entertaining sort of way. If chess demands an element of thought and thinking then let me think in terms of words even though now computers can compose words ever so wisely as well. Machines can and will and already winning out but don't forget who the creator is. Good God am I lecturing? I'm never suppose to do that. It never takes a genius.

Falling Bridges Coming Down Made In China

Pat Thurston spoke about it on the news talk our major news station here on the radio of San Francisco. I would not bet on it. It's KG0 radio 810. My blog got mentioned and yes this time I got nervous because of that. Anyhow I didn't notice any readership of this blog increasing maybe I'll have to take it to the New York Times before any increase could happen. So where was I? Oh yes....no bet on the San Francisco Bay Bridge falling down; don't bet on it. That would be a disaster if it did fall down. We wouldn't want that. Believe it or not Stihl is a chainsaw made in China a good quality cutting machine tool made in China don't just take my word for it google it and see testimony of all those who swear by it. The truth shall be known. The products China makes can rapidly improve in quality older guys like me past forty know. We have seen it with Japan when they made poor quality products but they kept to the grindstone and now we have those dreaded good quality Japanese cars taking away American jobs. If America goes down then I will go down so I said on the Pat Thurston show. But it is true. A poor boy like me just wants to make good that's all just like China kind of a country so poor decades ago and still in many ways wants to come up from the dark ages and gain a little respect. Isn't it due time? Is it time for the fall and now the rise of China of grand proportions?

4707 The Number With No Meaning

It doesn't have meaning whatsoever to anyone I know. Maybe I'll ask Bill Wattenburg the rocket scientist if he can identify such a number. The engine search can however. It is smart like those smart bombs in the Persian Gulf War with guided missiles or the use of GPS. But to me it has meaning that number 4707 just as the number 2010 has meaning to Western Civilization. Now you might be getting the picture. In some days from now it will be Chinese New Year but the screener didn't want to take my call on the Ronn Owen's show concerning the significance of 4707 because you see no one cares. I do. The Nazi movement had their soldiers running around with those symbols around their armbands but I won't glorify it. But I will wear the number 4707 on my shirt. Nobody will know why doesn't anyone know what time it is doesn't anyone care? You can call me by my numbers or you can call me a derogatory name. It's your choice.