Yes I am a loner and do remember when I did have friends but being a loner doesn't crush me so much. This is why I look forward to hitting tennis balls as it makes making friends much easier and I did enjoy tennis and well enough to do quite well. Some very successful actors like Charles Bronson
and James Coburn were said to be loners. So when I have few friends or virtually no friends(parkinson disease probably has something to do with it) I look at the benefits of what tennis can do for a social life. I still led an active life and feel compelled to live a good life without being viewed as a bad guy or culprit. I know I am not the life of any party but being a non alcoholic drinker the past thirty years hasn't spurred on a social life for me either. I have started with the backboard and finding others to hit with becomes an natural follow up act. A backboard have never turned me down except when the local public tennis courts ran out if funds needed to repair the broken down backboard due to a said corrupted organization. But now it is repaired and I am hitting but now I have had my licenses suspended and I hear the sermons of Joel Osteen reaching me saying that despite what other people are saying to me that I am wrong to think as I an thinking to do what God is directing or guiding me to do and not get stressed out in this decision making of whether to drive this dream car. Joel Osteen is directing his choir or his followers to follow their dreams and never to give up their dreams and that is the way I feel despite the lack of support from those who think they know me best and want me to put up because the doctors say Parkinson's is devastating
and I am sure they have a good expertise at their profession as physicians but now without doubt I like millions of others believe in miracles. Jesus Christ is more powerful in my belief than all the doctors put together by far and this I do believe.