True Confessions Of A Chess Addict

You can see that I'm involved in an on going battle of mind control. I'm obsessed by chess emotional and totally. I cannot quit. There is the dark side of the game and you can quite clearly see the negativity of this game as it consumes my inner soul and eats up my total being like a cancer. When the telephone rings I will not answer it during a rated game I'm immersed in a game of concentration so compelling that tears often well up in my eyes the pressures to win aggravate me as pain and/or discomfort in my foot is brought on probably by the demands to win and not to suffer from the humiliation of defeat. Death before capitulation and often in games I will fight on to the last man take no prisoners. I've been known to make threats that in my life after I die in a game that I will be back and revenge and retaliation will be bitter sweet. At times I will die by my own sword rather than give up a fight to the finish. Yes I have told you the ugly side the dark side of chess and now you have it. It isn't all fun and games. A seasoned chess player has died a thousand deaths only to be reborn again and I say to parents tell your children not to do as I have done I lived my life in sincere misery in the house of on line chess.