Blurry Eyed Playing Chess

To think from now generations down the line if there are any great great and so forth grandsons or grand daughters they can know me through the written word. Chess is a very respectable game whether I do well at it is just a guess probably not but I'm spending the time. I'm playing the serious rated games now my ratings went down since there is this adjustment to the controls of this new Apple Mac Book computer I need to learn. Yesterday I was playing mostly rated games but thirteen games in one day is more than most people I know play. Yes it's just a game as I wrote my last rites or words in the end of game considered somber and quiet and seriously for thinkers calculating patterns and routes of this pieces now powered by computers. No I'm not saying this correctly. I'm being too elementary if I am to get better as a player my mental capacities for problem solving should become more sophisticated. It doesn't look like I'm headed that way. When a chess player loses a game he dies within and becomes born again only to start another one.