The Feel For Chess

If at the moment you give me a glass of milk I will make you a milk shake. This is how nervous I am it is no wonder I call this online game of chess Nerves Galore. An excellent orator John F Kennedy once said we are going to put a man on the moon not because it is easy but because it is hard. And oh my God he carried out his and our impossible dream he or we did in fact put a man on the moon thereafter. And I play the game of online chess not because it is easy but for the same reasons it is hard. And have I achieved a miracle? Not to long ago in this chess blog I was ready to pack it up for good it seemed and take up another hobby or whatever remember? The picture of the horses I drew to ride away to never never land far far away from the game of chess because I could no longer stand the torture and the agony of losing? I never could dream at that point of no returning to chess would I be still playing chess and even enjoying it but of course the nerves galore never goes away. As long as there is life in me there will my nerves when chess games are concerned. The last game I made a hit and assassinated my opponents queen hoping to carry out a perfect game but no I too blundered and gave away a rook out and out for no exchange in all the excitement of the game chess computers have no feelings they are as cold as steel when playing against them and they unlike humans do not blunder they do not make mistakes they are the super fast moving machines which calculate many thousands times faster than what a Ph D in mathematics can do. This last game I did do a wrong and I blundered but lady luck was on my side I could do a wrong and still win this game as long as my opponent blundered and he/she did big time by handing over his queen. This was a slightly higher rated chess player a human player. When I lose to a computer I say no hard feelings for machines are expected to out perform humans in a multitude of tasks. But for a human to beat me it can send my nerves to a doctor or a neurologist. And yes stress can make one more vulnerable to particular diseases but please oh please tell me you have at least an inkling of faith in something within me.