Playing Below My Capability

Lost two straight games I felt I could have played a much better game and so I feel bad I knew that I would so bad so bad and take it away in reverse James Brown now passed on a legend in the singing entertainment world. I felt I wasn't in the mode to be playing a good game the feeling was just there I didn't feel the sharpness the alertness it takes to play the good game but like a loser at the casino we the losers keep playing and playing; all I'm losing however is just the exhibition games. But even those exhibition games I hate to lose. Where do I begin to tell the story of how great a true chess game can be a true chess game that is all about winning to me where do I begin(sing it to the tune of Love Story).